Life, love and movies

It is Wednesday morning, the morning of Dragon Boat Festival a national holiday here in Taiwan. The air is cold and still damp from yesterday's and last night's rain, but happily no rain at the moment. Went out last for dinner with a friend, not sure it was a date, had some good Chinese food which led to a typical conversation of life and love ultimately a relationships.....

The topic of relationships in the gay world seems to be ever present and a cause for much navel gazing and contemplation, I don't remember the issue being discussed quite do much in the straight world .. but perhaps I just missed that. Having a had a series of long term relationships and being ended somewhat abruptly by me I don't consider myself to be an expert, and being single is somewhat of a novelty to me. However despite this people ask the usual suite of questions.. do you want one?... where will you find one? ... what do you want? ... what about marriage? ... I generally respond, maybe unfairly, with the question 'why do you need one?', wants and needs being different. Of course I ask myself this very same question all the time and no doubt have the same answers as everyone. People don't really want to be alone and we all need to be loved , wanted and needed, and we have to admit sharing life with another does bring its own unique joy.

So where is all this taking me ... waffle waffle ... I think like anything in life a relationship does not come easy, it doesn't come through the post and doesn't pop up out of the ground. The only way to meet a guy is get out there and go where the guys go, do what guys do, my best relationships have started from friendship not a one night stand. We all have goals and aspirations and have to work to achieve them a relationship is the same, be it at the start, the middle, or forever. So we have to change, set goals, decided what we want, not who we want, not a tick list of the prefect the guy who must meet our requirements ... sharing wants and desires is always the best part of a relationship. Sigh .... I think I have said enough for now .. more later perhaps after I gather my thoughts ......

Well the night culminated in going to see a movie, that Tom Hanks one, Da Vinici Code. Now I was thinking how nice it would be to do a movie review, a critique so to speak. Alas we went to the see the 11:40 showing and after the usual onslaught on Ad's it got started at 12, by which time my eye lids were heavy, and I promptly preceded to sleep almost through the whole movie. I did wake for all the loud bangs (action sequences I think they are called), but the thoughtful quiet moments sent me right back to sleep. So I will either have to wait for a flight or the DVD to see the whole movie. If you know who did it, don't tell me! I'll wait to see it again!

Time goes by ..not so slowly ...

Well indeed, it is already Tuesday I am not quite sure what happened to most of Sunday and Monday and I wasn't drunk on either day. Sometimes we just slip into one of those routines where things just become automatic, usually happening to me on a Sunday and snapping out of it sometime mid-week. I think this morning I must have snapped. Although the only thing that really happened on Sunday was me managing to overcome my overwhelming desire for double pepperoni pizza and settling for a healthy option .. although last night I did weaken for a moment and scoffed down a Twix!

For the record my weight currently stands around the 97.5 kg (minus the twix) when I get to 95kg I will treat myself to that pizza. Tomorrow is a public holiday, Dragon Boat Festival, involving boats and water and with Taipei suffering from yet more rain then on the water is probably the best place to be. It has been suggested that we spend the Wednesday wandering aimlessly around a mountain, however that is definitely not my cup of tea, let alone in the rain. I was hoping for some sunshine then we could take ourselves off somewhere to enjoy the weather, but alas I think we'll all be trapped indoors or in a department store spending money that would be better spent on something else! Should anything exciting happen I will let you know ....

I feel pretty, oh so pretty ....tonight ...tonight .

Last night was a cultural evening, which made a very pleasant change, we all trotted off to see a production of Westside Story. Now for those I haven't told, I starred in the University of Plymouth very amateur production of the same show ... playing the dastardly Chino. So last night I watched the show with a great deal off fondness recalling how I struggled to co-ordinate my feet to achieve some fairly tricky dance moves, and it best not to mention my singing.

So it was with great joy that I managed to recall a lot of the script and sing-a-long to the well known and not so well known tunes ... I like to be in America ... Tonight, tonight ..it all began tonight. So feeling pretty we all then headed off for more fun fun fun in Fresh.

Must admit all was a little quiet last night and thankfully I only had to stave off a few amorous advances, whilst making non of my own. Spent most of the time focused on a G&T which went down lovely. Oh and it wasn't Pet Shop Boys night, apparently that was the Friday .. so I was unable to relive what was my very sensible teen years, although with my mind full of Westside Story I found myself singing Officer Krupke to Madonna's Hung-up ... all very strange .....

Another Friday gone, passed by and laid to rest. It was I have to admit pretty much the same as every other one. Always a mad rush to get that report finished for the end of the week. But generally it was a productive day in the office for once!

The evening was another quiet one, spent most of the time just chatting to friends online catching up with the goings on of the week. Seems like most people live the ordinary just like me. There were no revelations, no strange feelings or tales of woe. Perhaps Saturday will be different ... I'll have to wait and see ...

Normality is ... just that ... normal

Some days are decidely more interesting than others, however today wasn't one of them. As well as spending last night comtemplating things and this morning pondering my navel, I appear to have been spending far too much considering the relative merits of the Electrolux Environo Home Steam Cleaner. The big question being is will it make my life easy and potentially fill a gapping hole in my life here in Taiwan.

Now what makes me think all this, actually I have one of these yellow steaming machines in the UK and it does make light of those hard to do cleaning activities, but as to whether or not it is actually better than a mop and bucket remains unanswered. It may in general make my life easier and fill a big gap, perhaps if I just got a cleaner in, someone who can use things like mops and dusters with much more dextrity and effectiveness than I can. So at the moment this remains an open question in my life, ans thankfully I have not seen of one these hot headed beauties in a store recently otherwise I am sure the credit card monster would have forced me to buy one and it would now be gathering more dust than I would have actually cleaned up with it!

Well last night was fairly normal, decided to give the usually array of chat rooms a miss, I was having one of those moods, to be or not to be bothered talking to people and faking interesting. I decided better not to fake it and anyway CSI (even though is was the moralistic Ginger thing) was on TV and the new show 'Numbers' which I am still struggling to get in to althought the subject matter does suit me (crime and the who dunnits being my big hot cup of milky tea).

What to have for dinner tonight .... oh I didn't take my blood pressure last night, sometimes it is better not to know you are going to explode ... at least for the moment.

Oh, another day ... should I Blog?

Ok, the second blog, such a long time since the last one .... fat lazy arse that I am. Well after my bout of not very well diagonsed illness I am finally getting some energy back, although not enough excess energy to whinge about the bloody wet weather again!

Well the news is that I have finally got around to attempting to make a few lifestyle changes, the main one being to shed a few of the excess pounds that i have accumulated over the last 14 years. I still blame puberty for being fat ... i was thin before that hit, oh yes and my strange deep voice, all wouldn't have been so bad if it had given more than 6 lonely chest hairs.

So tonight is another uneventful one, a trip to FNAC to pick-up a ticket for Westside Story and then to the supermarket for some lettuce leaves and other 'healthy' food.

While I remember must take my blood pressure tonight, just to make sure my head isn't going to explode ... no comment on work, all the same as ever.

Oh, the trip to Singapore was good and nowhere near as dull as i was lead to beleive and no, i haven't managed to learn any new chinese words today... back to beginning I guess I am a lazy fat arse!

No more for now ....